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    8 hours ago

    Happy pretend to be cis-mas

    I hate family Christmas, but I’ve only gotta show up for a short bit and the I’m heading back home for a community dinner I’m helping to put on. It’ll be amazing to spend Christmas evening among the people I truely feel like I belong with

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    15 hours ago

    Accidentally made it like, 2.5 weeks without shaving my body, shaved yesterday, and looking back my mood was gradually worsening each day. Not gonna let it get that bad again.

    Switched to a Pixel with grapheneOS, enjoying it so far.

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      10 hours ago

      I feel you on this so much. Shaving AND grapheneOS haha

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    18 hours ago

    currently in a hotel, hours away from my scheduled orchiectomy

    mostly feeling a mix of anxiety that I have deluded myself into this, that I’m about to commit to a mistake, and joy at the thought of not having testes anymore - all the ways I will finally be able to sit and walk and not feel discomfort, the freedom from that nauseating and disgusting feeling when they slap against my thigh, and of course a guarantee that the spectre of testosterone will never haunt my body again

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    20 hours ago

    Good! Loving the effects of HRT. It’s definitely “magic is real” levels of mind-blowing. Although more than that is how not bad I feel since allowing myself to … be myself. No more “what if I was a girl”, no more “I wish I could fill out this sweater”, no more “I’m wasting my life”, no more meat-puppet, no more waiting to die.

    I’m trans, and it’s awesome. (Can my beard just go away now kthx)

    Oh, and I finally reached the summit in Celeste. Take that, self-doubt.

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    18 hours ago

    I started on a new antidepressant in addition to the other one and the initial side effects have been making everything much worse. I’m 4 for 7 on eating this week and my world has largely shrunk from my apartment to my couch. No point to doing anything, I just hide under my weighted blanket and pretend I’ve already died

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    1 day ago

    Pretty good, really glad to have a break from work. Dysphoria has been very strong though.