Miss Universe

Last night I dreamed I was a kid, and instead of hiding and building a masc, I was demanding to be myself. Little dream me was so sure of herself, so ready to fight everyone who would tell her she couldn’t be who she really was. I could use her energy right now, and her willingness to fight for herself.

Speaking from experience, this isn’t how being a trans kid works. I wish it was. The trans kid experience is more like this: you have absolutely no control over your body or your life, you have no money, no experience, and nowhere to go. All that energy gets sucked out of you as you realize there is absolutely nothing you can do as dysphoria eats you alive. If you don’t have support from your family you are completely screwed until you become an adult. This isn’t to say transitioning early in life isn’t great, but to say that it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. Becoming an adult morphs these things into problems you can actually control (at least somewhat).

Mother and Step-Father 2 leaning towards 1

Father and Step-Mother 6

Aunt (fathers sister) 2

Cousin (child of aunt and also trans) 1

everyone else I don’t know for sure, probably 3 or 2

awwww amelia im so sorry to hear that :( thank you for not isolating yourself, i would miss you greatly

bleh