Hey ghosts in my machine! I promise not to spam post but I made a body progress college I wanted to share with you all. It’s from the day I finally decided I was tired of how I was presenting and needed a change from around 8 years ago. It took my first weight loss transition to reach my goal and realize I still hated my mirror to finally be absolutely certain I was trans. It took another 7 years after that to know I couldn’t just let it go.

It’s been a worn tooth and nail journey, and I’m not where I want yet, but when I see myself now, I finally see me. I hope the same for you.

  • Uli@sopuli.xyz
    31·
    5 months ago

    Is it possible to be very supportive and say you look great, and give my hopes that you get everything you want out of life, but at the same time inform you it’s spelled “collage”?

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      17·
      5 months ago

      YES!

      Dammit, I really thought I got it right when I didn’t get spell or grammar checked. Ah well. Guess my pictures are gonna need to go get their degree 😂

      Edited (so no one knows my shame 😭😂)

  • BleatingZombie@lemmy.world
    17·
    5 months ago

    On behalf of all cis-het guys like me scrolling through /c/all:

    Damn girl! U up? (Or something to that effect)

    In all seriousness, you are drop dead GORGEOUS

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      10·
      5 months ago

      I’m extremely picky on style 😅

      I don’t have much money at all, and I’m pretty much on my own so I only buy stuff I’d like to wear at work AND at home.

      Obviously aside from a few items 😅

      • DessertStorms@lemmy.blahaj.zone
        7·
        5 months ago

        Well you’re nailing it.

        That top (?) is fab, it reminds me a lot of a shirt-dress I had years ago that I really loved. It too was a cheapo find, from primark lol and also good for any occasion depending how you dress it, I love finds like that! Versatility ftw…

        Obviously aside from a few items 😅

        Good call 😂

        • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
          9·
          5 months ago

          It’s a dress actually! My second one I’ve ever bought, and it was like $25 on clearance. I’m trying to figure out full body selfies but I haven’t really found a way to not feel goofy in those shots. Need a selfie stick maybe.

          • DessertStorms@lemmy.blahaj.zone
            7·
            5 months ago

            Oh cool, and definitely a bargain!

            I avoid being documented at all costs, so I can relate to feeling goofy, and can offer no advice whatsoever lol

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      9·
      5 months ago

      I feel so crazy fortunate for my hair. It’s my favorite thing about me (and maybe other people too 🥺👉🏼👈🏼). I try to put in effort with it and I have a good stylist but I’ll admit I also have a lot of luck with how it dries and curls.

      Thank you so much!

  • OldEggNewTricks@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    9·
    5 months ago

    You look so good, I’m jealous!

    Thank you so much for posting the progress pictures. I’m facing losing a similar amount of weight as part of getting to where I want to be, and you give me hope.

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      5·
      5 months ago

      You can do it. Start small. Track your wins over time. It’s hard but it gets easier with every win. The hardest part is your earliest wins. It stays hard but you get better at it.

    • Zorsith@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
      2·
      5 months ago

      Same. One of these days I’ll actually get around to going to the gym (riiiight after dealing with severe executive dysfunction) and knock off a good… 80ish pounds (or at least convert a good chunk of that to muscle mass instead of fat). I got relatively lean arms and thunder thighs out of genetics, it’s aaaaaall torso and moobs 😅

  • Plopp@lemmy.world
    8·
    5 months ago

    Holy hell what a transformation! Wow. Congratulations for finding yourself and working hard to get where you are.

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      3·
      5 months ago

      Thank you. It’s not been easy at all, but I’ve gotten better as I’ve gone. I’m really happy with where I am and I’m really excited for where I will be!

  • 🦄🦄🦄Deutsch
    7·
    5 months ago

    Damn, goals!

    I never know weather this question is rude (baby trans here) so feel free to tell me to get lost.

    Did you have facial surgery or is this from hrt only?

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      7·
      5 months ago

      I don’t personally feel it’s rude? The subject matter is my medical transition progress and I think the question is relevant.

      No surgery. I’m way too poor. Just the stereotypical autism-baby-face with a bit of hrt luck and smiling helps me a lot. Cheeks aren’t fully there when I got RBF going.

      I try to smile a lot to compensate 😅

      My regime is oral estradiol, Spironolactone and progesterone (since month 6).

      On the I hit 9 months hrt early this month.

      Current resting face

      • 🦄🦄🦄Deutsch
        6·
        5 months ago

        Thanks! This really gives me hope I might be ok without ffs as well!

        (And you are gorgeous btw :3)

        • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
          6·
          5 months ago

          Many people are. I’d say the vast majority of people I know personally were fine without it, but I do have friends who felt it was a need.

          My advice is give hrt a year and a half to two years to do it’s work first and see how you feel. Take daily photos too. Really smart choice I made I think. Made it easier to start seeing differences and It’s fun scrolling and watching my face change over time.

          (Thank you for the compliments 🥹)

      • RavenFellBlade@lemmy.world
        5·
        5 months ago

        Autism baby face? That explains so, so much. I didn’t know that was a thing, but several of my trans friends are on the spectrum and all of them have very soft, youthful faces.

        • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
          5·
          5 months ago

          Yup. It’s a thing.

          Been told by a few people there may be something to autism being tied to how our connective tissue develops and forms. I’m not a bioscience girl tho. I just plug people’s power cords into the wall and pretend I’m smart when they praise me for fixing their computer.

  • RavenFellBlade@lemmy.world
    7·
    5 months ago

    Your more recent pictures look so much more naturally happy and less masked. You’re adorable, you’re powerful, and I wish you all happiness and success!

    • RIPandTERROR@sh.itjust.worksOP
      5·
      5 months ago

      I first learned about masking when I found I had autism years ago. Being able to take off my Mask from that at the time was a liberation I’d never felt before, but it was nothing compared to taking my Masc off.

      I had to rip it off of my skin. It tore horribly and hurt awfully but for the first time I got to be seen. Nothing compares to a lifetime of a mask finally being taken off.

      • RavenFellBlade@lemmy.world
        2·
        4 months ago

        I know it took awhile for me to see this, but I’m glad I finally did. That’s powerfully poetic imagery, your masculinity itself being a mask obscuring your true self. I’m glad you were able to tear both masks off.