I found going ahead with the scary things I wanted to do very empowering, especially enforcing name/pronouns and who I am. It was awkward at first, but I’m getting used to it, and I don’t miss the little sting of the old ones constantly knocking down my self esteem.
More general advice: figure out what’s causing you to feel that way and change it. If it’s talking about certain things, try not to get into those conversations; it it’s hearing your deadname, try to get others to respect your name. Trying to be fine with the current situation when you’re not is a losing battle, and that doesn’t make you “weak” or any of that BS some people will say.
Also note, you can be doing all you can and it still takes a while for it to feel natural and easy, for you to be able to drop your guard and feel like you. I’m still going through that, but every month is an improvement as my comfort and confidence grows. Goof luck, Amber! ❤️
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