Please forgive me if this is not a proper space to discuss the long journey from starting point (no meditation) to desired goal (daily meditation 80% or more of days) for someone living in an individualist and undisciplined culture;

Like many others in such a situation I suspect, I go thru spells where I don’t meditate. I’m still trying to understand why, in order that I can eventually stop doing so. Even right now I’m playing a game of some sort with myself by making this post, but that’s actually beside the point.

I finally noticed one correlation: the spells line up (sometimes) with periods where I’m “angry at the world” in some sense … feel bitter disappointment at dreams which didn’t come to pass for some unjust or unaccepted reason, etc etc etc. This turns into sullen (or hot & fiery, depending) resistance, and then I don’t meditate for a while until I get over it. But sometimes this takes months, and anyway, it’s the exact opposite of what I need to be doing in such a situation. So ideally I could come to understand this and dispense with the whole pointless resistance part.

Anyway. Just posting to paint myself into a corner so that I have to stop skipping, but, I am curious if there is anyone else out there who has noticed this.