The fact that you made this post shows you are not a bad person. It shows you care about yourself to set a standard and measure yourself against it. You are just like everyone else in that regard and that is pretty special.
I say you are not bad. I say you are amazing. To quote: “What a piece of work is a man, How noble in reason, how infinite in faculty, In form and moving how express and admirable, In action how like an Angel, In apprehension how like a god, The beauty of the world, The paragon of animals.“
Now that is a pretty high bar. We strive for it and we measure ourselves against it. Does the fact we do not achieve it makes us bad? No, it makes us human.
Whether or not you consider them photos, DOJ considers them child porn and you will still go to jail.