I always loved to declare to my DM that I’m playing CN character.

Great question. I am referencing to the events and space I’m experiencing, now there could be some sort of unity behind the concepts and relations of life and death. Due to the lack of perception outside of basic sensors I dare not to say anything further.

On the side note, at some point in my life I’ve been influenced by A. Watts, On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are (the game of black and white) in particular.

1. Everything I think of is just a model that tries to make sense of the world around me.
2. Life is chaos, order is just chaos of lesser magnitude.
3. Breathe, don’t assign any weight to your emotions and thoughts, no matter how bad things seem to be, there’s always tomorrow (to opt to get out).