I just wonder if it actually did get worse or it just seems like that because as an adult you have a lot more on your plate than you did when you were a kid/teen
No.
It’s just that adult life is less forgiving of ADHD symptoms.
As a kid they give you more of a pass because you’re a kid, they just assume kids get distracted, consumed by social life issues, or just “teen issues”. Maybe you fail one assignment but you pull a win off later that keeps your head above water thanks to averaging grades.
Now you move into a highly structured adult life where there’s far less forgiveness for failure to accomplish things by deadlines. Adult life doesn’t average your failure to pay bills or accomplish work your boss told you to do.
So yeah, ADHD is more stressful as an adult because there’s less forgiveness, less wiggle room.
JMO.
My ADHD is so severe that I flunked out of high school even though I was placed in all college prep and AP classes. My parents were both born in the 1930’s, so their solution was ground me. For four years. I had no idea what was wrong with me, and by the 10th grade I was convinced I was stupid. Then after high school I found the joys of self-medicating with alcohol and cocaine. I literally wasted 20+ years drifting from manual labor job to manual labor job, and staying trashed on the weekends. I used to be angry about it, now I’m just sad. Things could have been different. Now I’m too old, too tired, and too unemployable to care anymore. Thank Fat Baby Jeebus I never had children.
It doesn’t get worse, everyone else changes.
I became more aware of my symptoms. I don’t think they are particularly worse though lol
My memory has gotten worse and worse. I think it’s a matter of age, neurological damage/cognitive decline due to bipolar disorder and other stressful events, and worsened memory that was never great because of ADHD. I need to write everything down nowadays. Other than that, no; I think the rest of the symptoms have been similar throughout my life.
ADHD is commonly referred to as an executive dysfunction - it also effects non-executive tasks and time management in general but, coming into adulthood, you’ll truly understand why it’s a recognized disability and stare in shocked horror at ADHD havers of prior generations.
It was really unfortunate in school if you failed to complete an assignment and had to repeat a course or a grade but if you can’t manage to pay rent or utility bills (even when you have the money to) you’re fucked. It can also be difficult to keep jobs if you struggle to produce consistent output potentially depriving you of the money to pay those bills.
When you were a kid you (hopefully) would always have a roof over your head and food to eat - being an adult means losing that guaranteed safety net. Even if we’ve had years to practice coping methods the price of failure is extremely steep.
It’s also for this reason that I’ve encouraged everyone I know in the states with ADHD to emigrate - the social safety nets in America effectively don’t exist for us as they have qualifications and constant high amounts of effort to maintain enrollment. If you get fucked once in America you’re going to be in a bad place.
Adderall isn’t an approved medication outside of the United States though, and it’s the only drug that works for me. Plus… I’m already having a hard enough time. You need tens of thousands saved up to even afford a move, and then go through the immigration process? All that paperwork? Obviously there are better safety nets outside of the United States but most people privileged enough to afford to leave would also be in less need of a safety net.
Basically, this is terrible advice lmao
Difficult to execute advice doesn’t make it terrible.
I mean, functionally it does mean exactly that.
My understanding is Adderall isn’t that much different to dexamphetamine?
Is it? Is Dexamphetamine legal in Europe?
In Sweden we have a choice of Dexamfetamine, Lisdexamfetamine, Methylphenidate and Atomoxetine. Diagnosis is $30 and medication cost is capped at $200/yr. American refugees welcome.
I moved out of country for about three thousand dollars in total and most of that was moving fees for shipping my possessions across the country. Canadian immigration costs are actually extremely reasonable and your out of pocket fees to the governor for applications will usually be under a thousand dollars (mine was especially affordable since I immigrated on a fiance visa).
Everyone’s situation is different, so don’t feel pressured to leave - especially if you have a strong social safety net in the form of family and friends… I unfortunately didn’t really have that.
My main point though is that even people of privilege with high paying jobs (I’m a software developer myself) can suddenly get hit with a series of tragedies or other events that unbalance us and put us, in particular, in a place that we’ll struggle to dig ourselves out of. There was a time in university when I ran out of meds and got hit by a bout of depression and escaped it purely by the intervention of a friend getting me to call the pharmacy and authorize a third party medication pickup and then going to grab the meds. That experience terrified me because of how helpless I felt trying to organize my life while experiencing a lack of meds and withdrawal.
Shit can be hard - and yea, we’re not all the same… so my advice might not work for you.
Edit: I checked - and the visa I got my PR card on is now 1,205 $CAD potentially with additional fees for things like photos and background checks. The business PR path is 2385 $CAD - full information available here: https://ircc.canada.ca/english/information/fees/fees.asp
Sounds like you have to be sponsored by a company to make the move though via a business visa? That still basically only happens to people in high paying jobs.
You’re in a high paying career and knew someone in the country, that made things way easier for you, and indiscriminately giving the advice that people should emigrate makes you sound like a privileged tool.
You’re in a high paying career and knew someone in the country, that made things way easier for you, and indiscriminately giving the advice that people should emigrate makes you sound like a privileged tool.
The negativity is immense - why are you seeking such an adversarial interaction?
What am I supposed to suck your dick for giving out terrible advice that only a small proportion of the population can follow through on? I’m literally just telling you how you actually come across. Hear it or don’t.
I think it’s partly decompensation.
I’m 50 and I have my ADHD assessment in a month. I’m in software too similar to OP. for me the impulsiveness has gotten worse where i react with deregulated emotional outbursts that are affecting me and my family. I’ve got a bunch of processes to handle a lot of the symptoms but impulsiveness was never something I noticed I had until recently. I’ve always known i don’t have much of a filter, blurting out whatever is forefront in my head. I’ve asked a number of my medicated friends and I’m told the medication does help with the emotional impulsiveness, providing the time to filter. but it does feel weird doing this at 50 🤯
Never too late to improve - you’ve still got lots of time to enjoy the benefits!
Have you considered therapy as well? I don’t come down hard one way or another on therapy vs medication, but imo talking to a therapist about these sorts of things can be very helpful - especially when dealing with the more “emotional” side of things. Even just knowing how to identify certain emotional patterns or feelings can make a world of difference.
(Obviously you don’t have to answer that - feel free to consider my question rhetorical!)
I’m not sure if the ADHD got worse or it was just the consequences that got worse. Either way, I’ve had to try to find coping mechanisms. I make a lot of lists and use the reminder app on my phone a lot.
Yes. I didn’t seek treatment until my late 40s. I think my coping mechanisms started failing me as I got older, for a variety of reasons.
I was diagnosed at 32 in my last semester of my undergrad. I just ended up with more stress than I could handle and ended up in therapy and thats when I found out.
Similar thing here. Too much stress at work and at home and suddenly things I’d always been able to do were becoming difficult. I couldn’t brute force my way into focusing anymore.
But once I got on medication (and my body adjusted to it) my brain felt like it was 20 years younger again. It was life changing, for the better.
I was also diagnosed late in life (mid 40s).
For me it became a significant impact in two places in my life:
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as my roles changed and I needed more ability to handle “blank page” type work assignments as I became more senior, rather than “survive this chaos” which I’ve always excelled at (given my ability to drop something, pick up something else, then revert later.) With previous “chaos surfing” roles, my now diagnosed ADHD was actually a secret super power (seriously, I managed turn ADHD into a career). As my roles became more “take this blank page, and figure out what to do, and make it into a project to make stuff better” I fell off a performance cliff.
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as 1 happened, my ramp up of symptom management routines started to impact my family. (I didn’t actually realise this until my partner filled in her part of my diagnosis questionnaire. )
My Doc basically told me I had been doing everything they want ADHD patients to do to manage the impacts of their symptoms, but my level of challenge had reached a point where medication could help me live at an effort level below the 99.99% constant I had all the time.
He was right and it did…
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